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  St. John snorted. “They call me Sin, not Saint.”

  “Oh,” Layla said in a small voice. “Well, then you are in a bad way. A boy named Sin is bound to get into trouble.”

  He rolled his eyes at her jest. But she did not miss the way he seemed to hug himself and turn his face from hers, or the way his chest hitched with a sharp breath.

  “Did you get hurt in the fire? Is that why you were crying?”

  “For the last time,” he spat out, “I was not crying.”

  When she simply waited for an explanation, he gave an expansive sigh, the sort Cook did when Layla asked for her meat to be served rare. Layla never felt badly about that, though. She loved bloody meat. It tasted sweet to her. Why Cook couldn’t understand this, she’d never know.

  “I . . .” Sin bit the corner of his bottom lip and then blurted out, “I started the fire. It was an accident.”

  “Oh.” Layla pulled one leg close to her chest, leaving the other to dangle. “Were they very cross with you?”

  “They don’t know.”

  They were silent for a moment, listening to the birds chirp.

  “Once, when I was six,” Layla said, “I took it to mind to have a bath. I turned on the taps myself. Only I had to get my doll Annabelle ready, and then I’d forgotten I’d promised her a tea party, and well . . . Mrs. Gibbons came charging in, shouting about a leaking ceiling.”

  Oh, the memory still burned.

  Sin snorted. “You flooded the bath?”

  “Yes.”

  He laughed and laughed. A very nice sound. And she told him so.

  Unfortunately, it made him stop. But he didn’t ask her to leave. Instead they sat for a long while, until her legs grew cramped. “I have to get down. Will you come and play with me at the pond instead, Saint John?”

  “Call me Sin. It’s what my friends do.” And then he jumped right out of the tree as though the height was nothing to him. Well, Layla could do that too.

  “I’d rather call you Saint,” she said, once safely on the ground.

  His pale green eyes crinkled at the corners. “Why?”

  “Someone ought to think the best of you. I shall apply myself to the task.”

  He looked annoyed but she did not miss the way his mouth fought a smile. “You are a strange little bird, Layla. Are we going to the pond or what?”

  “Lead the way, Saint.”

  And he did. For five wonderful years, he led her on adventures, became her dearest friend. And then Augustus ruined it all. He took her away from Sin and Ireland, and she’d never see either again.

  Chapter One

  London 1890

  St. John Evernight ran full-out, his bare feet hitting the cold, slick cobbles with nary a sound. He did not need footwear, for his skin would never tear, and clunky boots affected his speed and balance. Both of which he needed during a chase.

  His prey was just ahead, moving at inhuman speed and agility through the dark alleyway. Too far to catch or get a proper look at. Irritated, Sin put forth the effort and increased his pace, pushing himself to his limits.

  Christ but this thing was fast. For Sin had no clue as to its nature; its scent was a strange mix that he’d never before encountered, though it appeared human in shape, which really meant nothing in his world of shape shifters and demons.

  The moonless night reduced everything to dark shapes, echoing sounds, rank smells. This was London, after all, a city of foul, coal-leaden fog and evil lurking in shadowy corners.

  Breath burning in his lungs, he dashed around a corner, following the slim figure ahead, a dark cloak fluttering behind it like a flag.

  Closer, closer.

  Sin stretched his arm out, his silver fingers appearing like glass in the darkness. Almost . . .

  His prey leapt, straight up.

  “Shit.”

  Slate and dirt rained down, clacking and clattering as the thing took to the rooftops.

  Well then.

  Sin leapt too, landing lightly on his feet and taking off even as part of the roof began to cave under his weight. Scrambling up the steep slope, he reached the spine of the roof and dashed along the narrow space.

  His quarry was getting away. Not bloody likely. He’d seen what it had done, gorging itself on a helpless human before Sin had appeared. He’d taken one look at the cloaked figure huddled over the body, blood thick and redolent on the ground, and attacked. Sin would not give this creature another opportunity to kill again.

  Unfortunately, whatever it was he chased was slightly quicker than he was. It chafed.

  “Sod it.” He halted, sliding a few feet on the slick surface before stopping. The creature kept going, but Sin had had enough. Tearing off his clothes, he watched his prey leap from rooftop to rooftop, its moves akin to a lycan’s but slightly off. Hell, everything was off about this thing.

  Nude, Sin took a breath and let his wings free. They unfurled behind him like sails snapping in a full wind. And then he took to the sky, his crystal clear skin now invisible to those below.

  Gods, he’d never grow accustomed to that first burst of power and motion of flight. No matter how hellish his life got, flying was bloody glorious.

  Up he went, his gaze intent on the creature, who was headed for the Thames, near Parliament Bridge. It was slowing, unaware that Sin was still stalking.

  With a hard grin, Sin angled his body, his wings slicing through the air, sending a ripple of pure pleasure along his spine. He dove, the wind whistling in his ears.

  The tiny form moving along the rooftops grew larger, larger. Sin was almost on top of him when, out of the corner of his eye, he saw another form racing from the opposite direction towards them both. A massive, hairy werewolf.

  Collision was imminent, but Sin did not slow or hesitate. His arms wrapped around his prey, noting its slim form, the scent reminiscent of lycan, mixed with blood and something oddly floral. Then the world exploded in a riot of fur, flesh, and snarls as the werewolf hit them both.

  They all rolled in a tumble of limbs, wings, and teeth, dropping over the edge of the roof and landing upon the Victoria Embankment with a massive crash. Pavers cracked; Sin’s wing did too. He registered the sharp pain with a grunt, lights popping behind his eyes.

  He did not let go of his prey. And yet his arms were empty and dozens of tiny black birds flapped around his face, with frantic wings obscuring his sight. They took to the sky, leaving him with an enormous, brassed-off werewolf crushing his chest.

  Sin watched the birds take flight and then roared his outrage, letting loose a bolt of lightning—his greatest weapon, and one he still had yet to get under full control.

  The were yelped, its big body writhing and launching into the air from the force. It tumbled several feet before righting and leaping to its feet.

  When it stood, it was no longer a wolf but a man, as naked as Sin, and glaring bloody murder his way.

  “Impudent pup,” growled Ian Ranulf, Lycan King and Sin’s brother-in-law. “You nearly burnt my cods off.”

  Sin vanished his wings with a thought and willed the color of his flesh from that of clear crystal to the human tone he’d been born with before standing and dusting off his sore arse. “And you cost me my prey. What the bloody hell were you thinking, Ian?”

  Ian’s mouth opened as if to retort then slammed shut as he scowled. With a sharp breath, he tilted his head and glanced at the sky, his expression thoughtful. “You know, dear brother, I really cannot say.”

  Dressed in borrowed clothes, which consisted of a fine lawn shirt, wool coat, and heavy kilt, Sin sat back in his chair by the fire and took a bracing sip of brandy. The liquor burned smooth and luscious down his throat, yet it did little to soothe him.

  He had not entered this study in years, and he felt every single one of them acutely. While he’d never called this place home, he’d been welcome here once. And he’d been cast out of here once too.

  After a small but irritating debate, Sin had agre
ed to follow Ian back to his home. They clearly had much to discuss and standing stark naked in the middle of London was hardly an intelligent course of action. And Sin couldn’t bring Ian back to his place. No one could ever know where Sin lived. So to Ian’s they went. Sin could not leave here soon enough.

  “She’s visiting Miranda and Archer at their country estate.” Ian’s casual comment broke their silence.

  Sin straightened in his seat and glanced at his brother-in-law, who lounged in the chair across from him. Firelight gleamed in Ian’s blue eyes, giving him a faintly demonic appearance, but his elegant sprawl and watchful manner spoke of pure lycan.

  They spoke of Daisy, Ian’s wife and Sin’s sister. Sin had three sisters: Daisy, Miranda, and Poppy. All three of them had cut Sin out of their lives. For good reason.

  An ugly sludge of regret and shame pushed through his gut. He tapped it down by force of will and faced Ian without wincing. “Are you going to tell her?” Does she ever speak of me? Do any of them? He couldn’t ask.

  “I do not keep things from my wife.” A lazy smile drifted across his lips. “However, I shall refrain from speaking of it until she is in a . . . receptive mood.”

  Sin’s mouth twisted at the thought of how Ian would get his wife in such a mood. “Careful, Ranulf, she’s still my sister. I’d rather think of her as pure and untouched, if it’s all the same to you.”

  Ian grinned outright. “Warms the cockles of my heart to see you ruffled over Daisy’s honor, even now.” His open expression shuttered. “What was it that you chased tonight?”

  Sin set his glass aside on the small table between them. “I don’t know. Which is rare.” Since becoming Judgment, he’d studied all manner of beasties. It was his duty to find those who practiced evil and deliver their souls for final judgment. “Its scent was like nothing I’ve encountered. I was hoping you could shed some light on it.”

  After all, Ian, as a lycan—a man capable of turning into a wolf—had the far superior sense of smell. Oddly though, Ian fidgeted in his seat, plucking at the bit of lace at his cuffs.

  Sin narrowed his gaze as a thought occurred. “You were chasing the thing as well, were you not? Or was that hit meant for me?”

  Ian gave him an irritated look, his body tight and almost hunched. Sin had learned early on in his life to read people, and he knew the wily bastard was hiding something.

  “I caught the creature’s scent from my terrace,” Ian said suddenly. “Went out to have a fag—Daisy doesn’t like smoke in the house.” His expression said it all: he loved Daisy’s grousing about cigarettes and the like. “At any rate, the scent washed over me before I had a chance to strike my match. It intrigued me enough to follow it.”

  Sin leaned forward, the worn leather creaking under him. “You caught the scent nearly a mile out and through all the . . .” He waved towards the window. “Foul smells of London?”

  Ian lifted an auburn brow. “You doubt my word?”

  Sin huffed out a laugh. “Hardly. More like, you have my extreme sympathies for possessing such a highly acute sense of smell.”

  Ian grimaced. “I shall not lie; there are times when it is truly a curse. Ordinarily, I ignore the majority of them. But there was something about this scent.” He glanced at Sin, the corners of his mouth turning down. “It was female, a stranger, and apparently lycan. Hardly something I could ignore.”

  As king of the lycans, Ian would expect to know every lycan that resided in London. But even more troubling was the fact that a female lycan hadn’t been born in centuries.

  Sin hadn’t been thinking about the sex of the creature he’d chased. But now he could recall that, when he’d grabbed hold of his prey, he’d felt the softness of breasts against his palms.

  Sin tapped the side of his bent knee. “I thought lycan as well; however the scent was slightly off.”

  “Because she isn’t.”

  “Are you certain?”

  Ian stopped just short of rolling his eyes, which Sin deserved for yet again questioning his sense of smell. “Her scent is close to lycan yet not. It’s akin to . . .” Ian’s brow wrinkled. “The difference between a white wine and a red. Or perhaps an apple to a pear.”

  “So if she isn’t lycan, what could she be?”

  Ian appeared deflated. “I haven’t a clue. It’s nothing I’ve personally encountered before.”

  While Sin was still in his twenties, Ian was over a century old.

  “Why did you tackle me?” Sin had to ask. From the angle of attack and the timing, Sin knew Ian had aimed for him, not the unknown creature.

  Ian had the good grace to wince. He looked off into the fire, his shoulders hunching. “I don’t know.”

  “You don’t know?” Sin repeated, dubious and more than curious now.

  “No.” Ian’s expression turned mulish, then he caught Sin’s gaze and sighed. “Bloody hell. I have no earthly idea. I felt compelled to track the scent. Then I saw you swooping down and . . .” He lifted his hands as if to convey his utter confusion. “Instinct told me to protect.”

  “And yet you still do not believe that she is a lycan.” Sin softened his tone. “If she were lycan, it would be your duty to protect one of your own.”

  “No one knows that better than I,” Ian said with a snort. For a moment, his aqua eyes appeared completely lupine. “But getting that close, it struck me that she is not lycan. Even more? There is a scent pattern to her that my inner wolf regards as an enemy. Honestly, St. John, I am confounded. I’ll have to think on it.”

  Sin sighed. “Well, whatever she is, she half-devoured a man tonight.”

  “Christ.” Ian ran a hand through his hair. “Do you require assistance?”

  Despite his resolve to blot out his personal life, a lump of gratitude filled Sin’s throat. He’d betrayed everyone he ever cared for, including this man. And yet Ian still offered help.

  “I shall let you know.” Because Sin could not bring himself to fully close that door. It was hard enough to stand now, force himself to leave. It did him no good to linger, for he would merely crave what he could not have: family, acceptance.

  “One thing,” he found himself saying. “Am I dreaming, or did our mysterious creature turn herself into a flock of birds?”

  Ian blanched, but he did not appear to be shocked. Sin would have bet his best hat Ian had not wanted him to mention that little fact. “She did,” Ian said slowly.

  “And aside from the obvious,” Sin said, “this disturbs you, why?”

  Ian seemed to search for his words. “It is a rare power. One not often seen.”

  “Perhaps we were chasing a shifter.”

  “That was no shifter.”

  “Odd you say so, since she did shift.”

  “Shifters change into other shapes, animals, not multiple birds.”

  “Ian.” Sin braced a hand on the back of the chair. “Spit it out, man. Why are you bothered by this?”

  Those lupine eyes glowed with irritation. “I know of only one being capable of doing such a thing, though I’ve only seen her shift to spiders. Her name is Lena.” A hint of fang dropped from behind Ian’s lips. “She is responsible for capturing and torturing Jack Talent.”

  Jack Talent was Ian’s foster son. Once he had been Sin’s good friend. Until Sin had disappointed everyone with his betrayal.

  “And yet you did not recognize this creature as Lena,” he said to Ian.

  “She might be disguising her scent. If it is Lena,” Ian went on in a silky tone, “I will destroy her.”

  Sin did not point out that Ian had had the creature nearly in his grasp and protected her instead. Truth was, now that Sin had begun the hunt, he would not stop until he’d won. It was his nature, and his duty. “Not,” Sin said, holding Ian’s gaze, “if I catch her first.”

  It was always the same. She came back to herself in stages. First her hearing. The ragged raps of her breath through her lips, the muted thud of her heart within her breast. T
hen feeling. This was often different, for she never ended up in the same place.

  At this moment, something cold, hard, and a bit gritty pressed against her cheek, her side, the swell of her hip. She was lying on something—the floor, if she had to guess. With a careful breath, she opened her eyes. Dusty, dark floorboards greeted her sight, and just beyond, the deep reds of a fine Turkish carpet.

  It was vaguely familiar. Another breath and it rushed back to her. A stateroom. She was on a luxury liner, on a deck that served the upper echelon, though given the dirt that had accumulated on the floor, it was more show than substance. She was traveling, nearly at her destination. The ocean ought to be a safe haven. But she knew now it wasn’t.

  Rising slowly, she winced at the various aches and pains shooting through her body. And then glanced down. Sweet butter, she was nude. And cold. She rubbed her arms and stood on wobbly limbs.

  She stumbled towards the bathing room, thankful that, despite the unswept dust on her bedroom floor, the chamber had a lovely, deep tub with taps that delivered piping hot water.

  Watching the water fill the tub, she sat on the edge of it and shivered. It was strange how she could remember that waking this way was not an uncommon occurrence, and yet she could barely string together a proper thought beyond the need to get warm and clean. She could not even remember her name, which ought to cause her fear, but it did not.

  Soon. Soon it will all come back to you. She knew she’d heard that refrain numerous times before.

  So she relaxed, sank into the filled tub, and let her body soak up the water’s warmth—her head lolling to the side, her eyes closed in quiet bliss. It was not until she’d reached for the little cake of soap, scrubbed her body and face, and rinsed clean that she noted the water’s now pink tinge.

  Blood. Her face and neck had been covered in blood. Only now did she recognize the faint metallic taste on her tongue and in the back of her throat. As if she’d been drinking it down. Hot, thick, wet. A fine shiver ran though her. So very delicious. And that was enough to have her scrambling from the tub, her shin banging on the edge as she fell out of it and onto the hard tiles.